Well, I am getting huge this time around. My stomach feels like it can't be stretched anymore. Insomnia has set in so here I am posting this at 11pm. I find myself ready for this baby in every way I can possibly think of, knowing that this one will probably be completely different from Emily. Some people tell me having a second child makes it soo much harder and others say it is not as bad as people make it out to be. I guess I will find out soon enough. One thing I learned from Emily is to have no expectations. It seems to make your already chaotic life a little simpler. I am getting so excited for the baby. I can't wait for that moment I see him for the first time, that moment can't ever be replaced. It is more emotional this time since I know what is going to happen, and I know what that overwhelming feeling of love and joy feels like the moment you see your child for the first time. Well, there was also some fear mixed in there as well but I think that was to be expected with your first child. I can't wait to see Chris lay his eyes on his little boy that I secretly think he thought he would never have. I feel so blessed to be able to give that to him. Anyhow, I am ready to add this little one to our family ties and make him a part of our everyday lives.
Emily is growing well. She has been fighting her sleep these past few days and waking up earlier than usual. I think her little brain is just absorbing so much it is hard for her to wind down. It is amazing to me all the words she is saying now. Everyday she will spit one out I have not heard before. She loves to see babies and she gets in my lap and rubs my tummy. She is growing up so fast, I still find myself just staring at her during the day, watching her facial expressions, as if she were still a new born. Sometimes you just can't help but laugh when she is doing something she is not suppose to. She will give you this grin and you just know she is about to get into something. That said, she is not a very good tail teller. Her excitement over things at this stage is just overwhelming to her. She gets this little squeally voice and her lips go up to where you can see her gums and she tries to tell you all about it. It is so sweet. I really do think she is going to do well with the baby. She will have her days, I know, but overall you can not expect too much from a 2 year old.
